You'll notice that I have not really gotten around to writting some sort of summer end summary. As much as I want to blame it on not having the time or being really busy or trying to focus on other things - none of thoes things are true - I simply have not wanted to.
The above is a poor attempt at a 360 degree view of my new dorm room. I'm all moved in and excited about having a nice new room and a suite with an awesome view. I'm excited about having new house plants to water and care for. I'm excited about the new blender my parents got me and to live with three new suitemates.
What doesn't excite me is hard work.
When I am confronted with my own aversion to doing something like taking the time to write out my own reactions and thoughts about the summer as a whole for you all, people who really truly care about it and want to know, I have a hard time mustering up the energy and will power to sit down and do it.
That is precisely why my Character Growth Plan (for those of you who have been following along) for the summer was to grow in naturally examining my own heart. It is NOT something that is natural for me to do and resolving to update this blog has been a real means of exposing my heart issues to the surface. The fact that it must be updated on a computer only heightens the fact. When, over the course of the sumer, I've finally sat down to try to update it my fingers often wander my attention over to other places scattered across the internet. My problem isn't that I'm just lazy. It's not the internet's fault. It's mine.
I've got a whole year ahead of me. Before that I have this one week ahead of me. There are meetings to plan, scheduals to organize, sign-up tables to sit at, parties to plan, supplies to gather, and all other manner of details to take care of. Beyond all of that there are real people out there who are broken and scared. There are Christians who just got on campus and are worried that they won't find a good Bible study or body of believers. There are also non-believers who are overwhelmed by the future and don't know what to do with themselves. They are devout athiests who are angry with their parents and everything else they were raised on (the church?) and are rip-roaring ready to rebel.
Those are eternal beings whose souls are on the line
and I'm worried about not being able to sleep in.