Friend: So how's school, work, and everything in between??
Me: things have been well. This semester I've had the most "busy work" assigned to me. I love all of my classes - i would just rather be assigned a few big assignments than lots of little ones
So, i've been busier than I'd like to be
Friend: How busy WOULD you like to be?
Me: ideally? zero busy
Friend: LOL! What would you DO?!
Me: sleep in, read for pleasure, cook, hang out with friends, play frisbee, watch movies, and very little else
Friend: That DOES sound pretty blissful... but then that would be work if you did it all the time... let's see, that's about one activity for every day of the week.... hmm...
Me: right. it wouldn't work well at all - that's totally not who God made me to be. If that would actually be my life I'd be miserable
Friend: haha
Me: The problem is – I've been responding to being busy pretty porrly.
Friend: How so?
Me: so, what happens when I just constantly feel more busy than I want to be is that I get mad at God, "this isn't the life that I want" kind of stuff... so I rebel against him, acting as though I don't have the life he's given me, and do a horrible job managing the time that I have.
and then God ends up showing me that there are consequences to the way i choose to live
so, lately life has looked like me wrestling with God about that kind of thing. In the past I've desired change in this area of my life, but I've so rarely seen any real change. I think for one of the first times I've experienced real repentance and there has been real struggle towards change.
which is ultimately quite tiring
but at the same time I feel like lots of my relationships are getting closer and closer which has been exciting
Friend: Wow..... but educational!
Me: things have been well. This semester I've had the most "busy work" assigned to me. I love all of my classes - i would just rather be assigned a few big assignments than lots of little ones
So, i've been busier than I'd like to be
Friend: How busy WOULD you like to be?
Me: ideally? zero busy
Friend: LOL! What would you DO?!
Me: sleep in, read for pleasure, cook, hang out with friends, play frisbee, watch movies, and very little else
Friend: That DOES sound pretty blissful... but then that would be work if you did it all the time... let's see, that's about one activity for every day of the week.... hmm...
Me: right. it wouldn't work well at all - that's totally not who God made me to be. If that would actually be my life I'd be miserable
Friend: haha
Me: The problem is – I've been responding to being busy pretty porrly.
Friend: How so?
Me: so, what happens when I just constantly feel more busy than I want to be is that I get mad at God, "this isn't the life that I want" kind of stuff... so I rebel against him, acting as though I don't have the life he's given me, and do a horrible job managing the time that I have.
and then God ends up showing me that there are consequences to the way i choose to live
so, lately life has looked like me wrestling with God about that kind of thing. In the past I've desired change in this area of my life, but I've so rarely seen any real change. I think for one of the first times I've experienced real repentance and there has been real struggle towards change.
which is ultimately quite tiring
but at the same time I feel like lots of my relationships are getting closer and closer which has been exciting
Friend: Wow..... but educational!